Azam Tahun Baru

When I think about life, I always feel i'm a bad person.  I never satisfied with what I have done in life and I think I don't really satisfied my loved ones feeling, that is my family. Especially my Mum. It's not that I never care about them, of course I care & I love them so much cuz my family is my everything. I don't know why, but I never satisfied with what I have done with my Family. The main reason is, I never show them how much I love and care lot about them. I'm not the type to express my feelings with my family. and and, myb slalu xdgr kata,degil n byk mlawan kata..I feel bad lah.. But am in the process of being a good daughter to my Mum and am trying my best. Plus, I will never know when my life is going to end. Myb soon, who knows. By that time, I hope I have done my job of being a good daughter and a loving sister. The things that i'm afraid in life is losing my family, but to never satisfied their feeling is what am afraid the most! My azam for next year and so on is to always satisfy my loved ones' feeling then I can die and rest in peace..

this is my lazy post

hello there long time no c oh i'm so lazy to blog lately cuz i'm bz and fyi, i didn't jog for a week u knw! i wonder how much fats did i gain now i know i'm being rude to myself  i'm too tired and have no time for myself uwaaaa~ 

p/s: i'm also bz spending time worried about my result that will come out soon oh my i really hope i get 3 pointer above i really study hard for this semester if i dont get 3 pointer i will cry till my tears dry itself i promise. huhu pliz 3.+ for this sem dear God! 

Truth Hurts

I just realize that my teenager's life is over as I hold this huge responsibilities at this young age. Actually I'm not ready yet and I'm weak. I'm just like any other teenagers who are eager to have fun in life and do whatever we want!  But I must accept the fact that I can't run from this responsibilities or else Dad must be disappointed looking at me from above. I know that truth hurts. My teenager's life is over now, that's the truth. I'm not lucky as any other teens but this is the fate. I got to accept it with an open heart though I have to sacrifice a lot =(

Let me tell you what happened last nite!

it was 2 a.m in the morning when Mum and Ani were having a boyfren girlfren issue while i'm trying to have a sleep!

They always fight for that small thing which really irritates me ok! Why mum take it seriously if my sister are having a boyfren. So what?? When will u open your mind Mum? i'm getting sick of it, i'm sorry, i love u btw. And here they go again:

(2.am)
Mum: ktk kol sapa tek ni?
Ani: kwn kmk ya mak
Mum: kwn kah gerek ktk ya? Demi Allah ya kwn ktk?
Ani: aok mak kwn kmk ajak ya!
Mum: ktk jgn nak bulak mamak ah. ktk dh sumpah demi Allah ya. mun ktk bulak siap ktk oleh mamak
Ani: aok eh. dh sumpah pun x cyk juak. ish!

ME: hello!!!! i'm trying to sleep here!!! dini ari tok ehhh. isok2 lah klaie ow!

like seriously i'm getting sick of it! they even fought in the car and anywhere they want just because of that boyfren girlfren issue. X lmk gila palak ku! argh!

i'm officially..

a BAD driver!  I heard it so many times already! Especially my mum. She always complain that i'm a bad bad driver that she might get a heart attack! That's y I told u to get a lisence faster mum!  hehe. who else?? oh yea, my sister and my beloved friends: Mia, Zahrah, Fifah and me myself.  I admit it, i'm a bad driver and am proud to be it as long as am still under control. :D like seriously I have fun driving so wild in the road. ahahah. Not everytime, just sometime when boredom strikes I guess.

The last time was with Zahrah and Fifah on our way to santubong. Man, what a journey. Plg memalukanlah part kreta mati depan laki2 hot yg tengah bersantai di tepi bas sekolah. Malu sungguh! But still we had fun. Kan kan? hehe. I will not forget that. And the last last time was with Mia, and i was so blur that morning but i didn't go wild, just my mind so slow i dunno y. We almost get knock by a car and luckily we're still alive. Thank God Mia shouted at me or else I didn't realize the car was so close to us. Then she was like perey 'kau nak pahal pagi tok?!' Sorry mia. Boh jerak. heheh.

Plus, there's always sounds of car horn everytime I drive on the road, which means everyday lo... hahaha. So betullah, I'm a bad driver. Do you mind to have a ride with me? Be my guest. Teehee.

ohh ok.

Let me tell u how it feels of being single for 6 months. wuhoo! 6 months man! Break the record baby.. I'm so proud of meself. Hehe. Like seriously, I never been single for this long. Previously, I give my heart easily to any guy and get hurt in return. See. I told u, I have improving myself. For being able to protect my heart from any kind of possibility to get hurt. 

So what do I like n dislike of being single? 

Like:

1. Jimat kredit lah. Ng jimat abis ehh. Rm5 dpt stay 4 ari arumbulak.
2. Cuci Mata Randomly
3. Crush over someone randomly. Like everyday I have a new crush on any different guy.
4. I go out with any guy 
5. Freedom baby.
6. Don't need to take care of partner's heart and feeling
7. It really teaches me to be patient when loneliness strikes me.
8. Get to know myself better. Like what I want in life what I'm looking in guy
9. I met so many type of guy and learn so many things about them. Guys are complicated too after a research. Only some of them lah.. =)
10. I feel independent now. Yeah, when I have boyfren, I depend on them a lot. 

Dislike:

1. When u hang out with friends that have boyfriend, they forget u easily. 
2. I feel really empty. Though I have lots of friends that really superb in entertaining job, but there's always a room for emptiness. I don't know why. Myb its a human nature.
3. I need kaseh syg lah. Like seriously I miss all the hugs n kisses. :D
4. I dislike the fact that everyone needs someone. Which is so TRUE 
5. I'm much happy when i'm not single. harharhar
6. I don't want to flirt with any random guy cuz after a while I get bored of it eventhough I found that it's cool at first. I need just one person who I can flirting around everyday. Only one guy who i called boyfren.
7. When I see a happy couple, I always wondering. Ohhh how I miss the moment.
8. I need someone who can take care of me besides my family and my friends.

As you can see, the Like list is more than the Dislike. So shud I stay single longer? Let me decide. Hehe. 

listen.

listen. i seriously don't care anymore.. why wud i bother?? u are wasting ur energy dear. shoot me all you want. cuz i'm bulletproof now. =) 

Alhamdulillah.

Hello there.. It's 12.13am and I can't sleep so I feel like blogging and share something that I learned today.

People get sick and heal. That's just the way it is and a disease is actually a gift from God. Yeah, many people know that. But I bet, only half of us (Muslim) know that a disease is actually a way that God trying to clean our sin. Not all of it but only a tiny miny of it since we're human being we made so many mistakes. The worst the disease, the greater amount of our sin being washed away by Allah. Don't you feel thankful for it?? So muslims, even when u get fever, or flu, don't feel bad about it cuz a little bit of ur sin is just being deducted from ur old record and it will help u to balance the scales in padang masyar later on.  Instead of cursing, why not Alhamdulillah? 'Alhamdulillah aku demam.Ada juak dosa ku diampunkan Tuhan aritok'. Simple. Instead of 'bodo demam tok'. So, renung2kanlah..

What I wrote just now really reminds me of my late date. =( 

He's been through a lot and he was a strong man. Eventhough sometimes he get weak and questioned 'knk byk glak dugaan dlm idup bpk'. Then I anwered 'sabar jak pak, ktk mesti kuat. Boh cpt glak give up, kmk org gk perlukan bpk'.  Watching him get sick but can do nothing, it sucks. It's like u really can feel the pain that he been through. Now, he's gone life must go on. What a good daughter can do to repay back for her father is just a pray to God. Alhamdulillah, like i said the worst the disease, the greater our sin being forgiven by Allah. That's the treasure that my Dad had gained in his life after all of the pain and hardship. Tp dosa dan pahala smua di tgn Allah kita sbg hamba hanyalah berserah. A strong person is someone who is willing to survive in life and never give up to praise of Allah . =)

Gudnite..

You are HOT just the way u are..

You don't need a minute to melt to this guy, cuz you just need a second to die rite after looking at his smile. His smile can make billion of ladies going crazy. Seriously, girls who won't fall for this smoking hot guy in the world are blind. It's a fact, ladies. ngee.. To me, he's one of the sexiest man alive that make me go Ulala~ a very horny statement but yet comes rite from the bottom of my heart. I seriously fall in love with u mr. wow! Can u pliz let me hold ya?? 

random things that i do

i always do something that is not plan but end up having fun doing it. <3 Me and adek was reluctant to go back home after sending Mom to work so I decided to go Boyan for a walk. a very rare thing to do anyway. After a walk we had this conversation.

Me: apa kata kta nait penambang mesti best ow.
Ani: apa kata kakak tok. mamak bego kelak
Me: aieh, iboh lah pdh ngn mamak. ileklah kakak ada bah
Ani: ok janji boh pdh mamak bego nya kelak
Me: yeay!! ju lah!

people I warn u, if u're not that brave enough nait penambang, don't do it. I was scared at first eventhough yesterday was not my first time nait penambang but I always scared everytime I do it. Rasa nak karam jak perauk ya time aku nait ehhh. Ng mulut ku sorg lah bisin. Kamboh. Haha. But i'm glad that we make it. We went for a walk at town and my sis can't stop nagging of the hot weather. and here we go again.

Ani: panas na juak ehh. apalah polah kta berjalan d ctok..
Me: aie rilek lah bkn slalu pun kta berjemor kdk tok.. xlah lalu itam. nakkah ani
        suka kayo2
Ani: kakak x hal kakak puteh! Ani tok itam! makin lah itam berjemor kdk tok.
Me: x terkata gk. *perey!* hahahahahah! tedah nya lok..

we walk walk walk and snap snap snap. eventhough my sis can't stop nagging, but actually she had fun doing it. I can see it in her eyes. Lol. so here are some pictures that we took during an adventures(mine the spelling) walk at town. Haha. 

p/s: i love u sis for making my wish come true. ngehngeh

nothing feels better than manicure with gf

manicure with girlfren? It's like a medicine to every girl I guess. when I was stress, manicure is my treatment after all.. this combination of colors had brighten up my day and make me feel happy. happy happy happy =D chilling up with Pipah a.k.a pipot yesterday was fun. long time no see and we had a great time. *wink. Next, we're planning to do this girl stuff thingy at Zahrah's crip a.k.a jarut. Ambush! holiday cpt2 honey. ok, gtg XOXO

i'm glad i'm happy tonite

yeay finally i'm happy even just for a while but i'm thankful that i'm happy. talking to you, its like taking a medicine. a genius answer from u make me feel great eventhough i hav tonnes of problem awaits. one simple answer or should i call it an opinion gives hope again in my life. feels like i wanna hug u rite now! no wonder u will be a doctor one day cuz u sure can heal the pain of ur patient someday. thnx dr. =)

antapp ehh

knk nya x antap gk ya~ xpa sbr jaklah... org molah gya.. sbr sparuh dr iman walaupun dh patah ati...

Let's burn some fats!

a healthy life style began yesterday when I started to practise myself to jog everyday! wuhoo! I hope I'm not 'abu2' this time cuz my body is getting 'montel' so me kinda worried about it. Jogging was fun especially when u do it early morning than doing it in evening because there's more fresh air and the perfect sunlight.. not too hot and me like it. yesterday I jogged at state library but it was nothing much and the view is boring~ besides, yesterday was a bad record cuz I only jogged for only two rounds.

This morning, I jogged at the reservoir and it was fun. The view there is perfect and I found that jogging is fun and healthy u know. Why didn't I do it earlier?? if the old man and lady can do it, why can't us?? so I don't want to waste this holiday by just lie down in the bed and doing nothing but accumulate fats in my body.. that is such a mean thing to do to my body. So people, let's start a healthy life today and let's burn fats! Jogging rocks! haha. Lol

look at me, I look so montel from the back n I just realize it! damn~

p/s: bait2 jogging rah tmn reservoir ya, org tua sia lanji2. hahahah~

Penyalahgunaan FB

byk2 bnda, fb juak dsalh guna org ow.. firstly, tujuan fb is k kta crk kwn, tp kinektok trend dh berubah. Fb k molah musuh dhl.. knk nya x nak... bkn main ah bersindir2 dlm fb. mun nak nganok ya, pdh dpn muka ehh. knk dlm fb juak. X matured lalu juak.. knk cuak kah? dlm fb bkn main nya lah hero/heroin nyindir org... mun nak nganok ya face to face~ org mok face to face x maok.. kakya nya bergasak nyindir dlm fb. kdklah org xtauk ow. org ada otak lah weii~ geram ati ku tok ehh. betol molah dosa jak... so for your info, mun ada mslh kah anok dpn muka k darling?? kta selesai face to face. bok bujang kit pok. bok slesai mslh! saya akan melayan ada sebaik yg termampu.... =)

raya haji~

i hope i'm not too late to wish everyone a happy raya haji!=) raya aji yesterday was awesome! accept that i get touchy watching the sapi get sembelih. kesian... huhu. anyways, meeting all the cuzzens , gathering, berloya, berdango, it was really fun! :D

i'm gonna miss them.. today everything is back to normal..everyone is bz with their own life.. some of my cuzzens are going back to miri and kl.. sigh~ lmk gk nak temu cdak tok gk koh.. how i wish all of my kazen are here at kuchg. life wud be so much fun having them here! sob2. sunyek kmk kat kuchg tok.. huhu..

anyways, holiday is back! =) i been waiting for it. no more lame post of hating exams and paper on facebook or twitter becoz final exam is over baby! hello holiday, we meet again. .i got so much plan for this hols. =D

time to ngerepak-ing

sometimes when i think of love, it's a funny thing isn't it? Just a flash back of my past experience in relationship for example. It went like this: kmk syg ktk GILA, u're my EVERYTHING, ssh mok crk pengganti ktk lps tok, we gonna GET MARRIED trust me, u're the one & bla2...

when u think of it again, n how much u have wasted on one box of tissue for crying over a guy, it is really funny. i mean it babe. where's the promise gone? it's actually just a typical dramatic line that we use in relationship and after a break up, you will find someone new, somehow a lot better than previous one. There is no istilah such as ssh mk carik pengganti ktk lps tok. Lie. Tampar palak. Haha. trust me.

What am trying to say is don't take is seriously of this love stuff. U can love and be loved. Who doesn't want it rite? Find someone that suits u, and if it doesn't just MOVE ON! Enjoy ur life darling. u knw what am saying? :))

c you later, toodles. XOXO

i hate exams!

yes, i really hate exam. Y? becoz it makes my hormone unbalance.. Im easily getting moody, sad, lonely,stress,pressure,angry, hungry, everythg! all in one and its hard to control it. damn~ why everything seems difficult & complicated??

today was sucks! yes it is sucks. i'm craving for mcD and i can't have it today. and i cried for that.. see.. i easily waste my tears on nothing important. that's y i hate exams! i hate it hate it hate it!!

plus, he's being so cold to me today, or am i getting too sensitive?? bitch. i feel like a 6months pregnant woman with unbalance hormone. T.T

sorry for the stupid things

it sucks when u woke up in the morning, all the flash back of ur stupid things that u've done in life haunting u back n make u feel so down. even worst, it made u feel weak n no stregth to begin the day.. it's like u called it a day remembering ur faults.

and i start to cry for all the stupid things i've done in past, wish i can turn back time and erase them all. but someone told us, we don't need an eraser to erase all our wrong, bcoz it make us, us today. it gives us stregth to be a better man.. what she said is true.. but still, there is a regret in life that someone kept in to itself n yes, i got it too..

check in

seriously, swimming dekat mp nang boring.

let's show some love sista. but that's not enuf. next time jak.

it's like i'm in another world, kan? far from the crazyness of final exam gave me. ngeh.

lastly, mmuah! u're welcome =P

nothing much to say. just want to upload some piccha. enjoy :)

suddenly i miss the old times. where have they gone?

i love pictures and how wonderful it is the way it makes me rewind back all the sweet memories and great people i met in my life. i miss all of u guys!

haezel jak xda.. i miss u too zel :)

Miley Cyrus- I Miss you w/lyrics

FAK

congratulation girl! u have shown ur true colour.. i hesitate u no more. so long..

meet Danish

hye! my name is Danish and i'm not a girl as u think i am. nice to meet u

do u believe it now? i'm gonna be a hot guy in school one day with 6 packs on my abs :D

oh this was really funny. wait. i mean HILARIOUS!

I'm gonna tell u about this st0ry whis is hardly or never happen to anyone else BUT Wani. happened last nite, 2.30 am while me and azah was chatting. Wani was sleeping then suddenly awake after listening to me n azah gossiping. yeah, she is allert when it comes to gossip thingy. here it goes

wani: aisha2! mintak aek

me: apahal??

wani: ada org..

me: org apa??? (dh sempek dh tek)

*here it goes the hilarious part*

wani: KMK TERKELAN NYAMUK TEK!!!

me n azah was like perey2 goleng tas katil tahan perut. bahahahahahahaahah! xterkata... hanya ketawa jak ku mampu lakukan pada masa itu.. this is really a funny story rite? rite?? i mean who in the world will accidently eating a mosquito?? hahahahah! if its not funny pliz leave ur comment. heh..

regarding to my previous post

oh, let's put it this way. let's just forget about love thingy and just focus about life~ final exam is just around the corner so let's focus and turn your study mode on, ok? can't wait for final exam to finish and start my holiday!! whooowaaaweee~

did i blew it?

oh gosh.. u know what mr, u're everything that's on my mind rite now.. & i lose all my focus bcoz of you.. hah. what do i do? is this love? i'm not so sure whether it's love or just a crush. but u have all that it takes to win my heart which is hardly occur with the rest of the guys. u're smart, that comes first as i considered that smart guy is so damn hot. second, u're FUNNY. i love funny guy who can entertain me in a creative way and on their own ways. thirdly, u're chinese + japanese looking guy which is kinda a new taste of mine, despite that u're not too tall which i really don't mind. its totally cute. *wink.

but the fact that u don't do relationship??? that's the biggest part that hurt me the most, mr. why?? i knw u have explained it to me very well and i understand it but thank god u're not gay. but urgh! after i found the perfect guy after all this while, he dont do relationship? life is cruel isn't it??? T.T

afta sleeping on it

if I have to lose my pride just to rescue our friendship, then i'm willing to do it rather than losing you.. i know it will hurt me, but to have a bestfriend but to ended up to be ur enemy, that is not cool.. if i can handle it with my ex boyfriends, why can't i give it a chance to you.. but i need some more times.. its not easy for me to forgive you easily, but Rasulullah had ordered us to forgive between each other and there is a 'hikmah' for all tht happened. i just need time to settle down and I hope you will understand my dearest friend..

i want my life back!

huhuh... life is different now, totally.. my life has changed drastically.. somehow, i want my life back when everything was perfect and normal.. now i'm living like a 'pelarian'. during weekend after going back from uitm, we're staying at this uncle, sometimes this aunty.. we din't live at our own house cuz mom can't stand at home. its like something is disturbing her.. i miss home. it's not comfortable to live at someone's else home, i miss my bed my tv room and my study desk especially... & somehow i need my own space. i even don't have time for myself.. hmm... maybe i'm being rude for nagging all this.. i'm sorry.. but this is what i felt..i need space for myself.. no one understand how i feel but only God knows.. huhu.. n i miss u Dad... especially ur stupid jokes n the way u make fun of urself.. i guess this is life.. i can't be happier than before. i need someone to entertain me to make feel great about this pathetic life i have :(

:(

sakit rasa nyawa rindu ngn bapak eh. sakit glak2.. huhuuu... mek beraie ngn ktk pak... T.T

i tell you.. *pointing finger

This is too much ok! too much. Feels like im gonna explode in any time. Gah!

hmmm

Someone ruined my mood & yeah, i have no mood to do my topic for final public speaking this evening. thnx!

i miss u already! :(

I miss u Dad! Huhuhu..Since the incident, God has took u away from us, forever. and yeah, it was four days before raya..When all of ur baju melayu,sampin and slepar raya have all been prepared :( Me, Mak and Ani celebrating raya wthout u Dad.. Wish u are here with us. Jealous ngga org lain raya gk maseh ada bpk. Taking pictures with the whole family. The family member is complete. Last year kmk dh suroh Abg Nazar ambik gamba kta sefamily, tp bpk x maok..We even fought for that smll thing. Kan tahun tok dh x sempat nak gamba kta sefamily.. =( Its like a hurricane hit me in my heart. I may look strong outside, and yet happy, but the truth is I miss u badly, pak. Xda org gk pakey kmk klaie dekat rumah.. Kelaie dgn adik x best..huhuh...I miss ur stupid jokes,I miss ur sweet smile, I miss ur face. If I can see u in my dream, that will be enough just to hold u for the last time.Whenever I see ur pictures, I cry badly.. why God took u away when I still need u, we need u, I never have enough of ur love.. I didn't even have the chance to speak to u on ur last day in this world. U were sleeping after I went back home that night. I dont have the heart to wake u up, so I just passed by. If I knew that was ur last day, I will spend that all nite with u Pak and ask for ur forgiveness. I knw I've made a lot of mistakes to u. I know that u're always damn worried about me cuz kmk salu nengkar bapak nak? X dengar kata.. I'm so sorry Pak.. I will always remember ur advice and will never forget our sweet memories together, Through our hardship, I will learn this life as well as cherishing it. Thanx for all the lesson of life u've thought me to make me a better person.

Skarang bpk dah x ada.. Mcm2 bnda jak kmk ngan Mak lalui Pak.Mesti bpk ssh ati ninggal kmk org nak? Dhlah kmk tok manjak, smua kerja bpk molah.P bpk boh bingong, start from now on, mek nak blaja jadi independent. .But deep inside Im scared and hesitate, I dunno whether Im ready or not to carry a big responsible to take care of Mak and adik. Bpk trust kmk x? Mun bpk trust kmk Insyaallah we will be fine. I promise I will study hard and take care of Mak and Adik, eventhough it's a hard job for 19 years immatured girl like me to carry such responsibility, but I'll try my best. Kmk kan anak bpk. I will make u proud, my dearest Dad. Semoga roh bpk dicucuri rahmat & berada dikalangan kekasih2 Allah. Amin.. Al-Fatihah.

I love u so much and sorry I never said it to u, but u know I do love u right :(

pffft~

Every day is a hectic day in campus. Gah! When will i get my life back??? From now on, I don't have a proper sleep instead, I got to cut down my sleep because of assignments.Final test is just 5weeks to come.Time is gold and its ticking very fast and I really have to manage my timetable well. Waking up like a zombie is not a big deal anymore. Gotta get use of it.And I need to finish many assgnments before Raya. I dont wanna celebrate it with Mr.assignment. Somehow, i miss holidays, really2 miss u so bad. I miss hanging out with my friends without worrying my assignments at home. I miss to overslept everyday.I miss my tv I miss my part time job, though it's not really the best part of holiday, but still I miss it. I miss to go to the beach.I miss shopping, I miss vacations.I miss my social life. I miss everythg about holidays! I need a holiday! and yes, I can't wait for Raya! weehooo~ I cant wait to make cookies. I cant wait to meet my beloved cuzzens and have a good times. and angpau, I know i'm getting old, but mudahan2 saham angpau ku tahun tok menait..hehe. I should been given angpau as a reward of all the hardworks.. Kan? hehehe.. Raya, pliz come fast!!I been waiting u for so long. XD

HAPPY INDEPENDENT DAY, MALAYSIA!

happy 53th Independent day Malaysia! as a Malaysian,i'm proud to be one and I love Malaysia! Muah3..Mardeka!

p/s: i'm not really merdeka today since I have tonnes of assignments and works to do today..so chiow~

today is a big day for momo~

as you can see the title, yes today is a big day for her.. Y?? cuz it's her first time to drive in town rite after she got her lisence. Not exactly rite after she got lisence, i mean few days afta she got one. Thumbs up for Momo....hehe.

And yes, i'm the happiest person for she got the lisence,bcoz she can 'culik2' me and we're like 'kaki ngelayo bah'. Yeehoo~ I got a lisence too, but there's a limit ofkoz. huhu.. Apparently, her parents is not strict as mine so she can 'culik' his bapak's car easily rather than me. So a ticket for us to go 'kayo2' to town selalu. hehe.

Tonite, i'm the co-pilot ofkoz. And a comment from me, "moe, jgn terlalu mesra dengan beam! u need to stay a litte far away from them!" haha..

Our motive is just going to mcD then blah, cuz she's craving for it. But me,istead of just going mcD, i pujok her to go The Hill maok survey2 barang raya, eventhough my mum had mentioned earlier not to go anywhere besides mcD. Biasala, anak tok ng degil. haha.. sorry Mak! Eventhough klua giya2 jak, tp best. hehe.. thnx Moe.

p/s: Moe, sorry tertumpah mcFlurry dlm kreta mu.. hee.. my bad. ngeee~

ngeeheee~

just wana stop by to post this pic. i found it in Zul's external and i reali like it.thnx to Zul anyway. thumbs up. i dont knw y i like this pic. myb it looks alive to me. haha..mia looks cute n tina also..n i look great. teehee.perasan! i dont knw what else to krepak, so babai. ;)

BRAINS!!!!!

MUAHAHA.....this is the game that i play currently, and got me so addicted with it~ to tell u the truth, my laptop is virgin with games b4 this. huahuahua~ shame on me! coz i'm kinda bz melayan crita korea...hehehe.. some said this game sucks, but i like it since my army is the plant and mushrooms which protect my house. isn't it cute? hehe.. since playing this game, i've turned into Zombie lately and the reason?? duh~ assignment ofkoz! guess who is my Zombie friend? adzie, my classmates! hahaha.. i can tell that she's my zombie friend since she's the one who's always sleeping late at nite doing assignments n turn out to be Zombie the next morning. lately she ate my brain and now i'm the new member of zombie too! hehe =P BRAINS!!! who's the next victim? Azah's brain!!! hahaha~

bingung, risau, gelisah!

Gosh! seriously i need to WORK HARD. man i've been procastinating all the time. when will i get to be serious in my studies?? this thing really bothers me lately. i always do my assgnment during last minute. last nite i couldn't sleep bcoz of worrying about my future... huhu.. seroiusly, am i going to be a good QS one day?! when it comes to this killing subject; the one and only.. my 'beloved' MEASUREMENT subject! argh~ this subject really2 brings pain in my butttttt! i still cant stand on my own foot when it comes to measurement. it's like i cant walk without my tongkat which means im still depending on someone else..

But something about my course that put me into trauma until this time. It was when we (my classmates and I) were visiting unimas for our construction site visit. There, we went to the office to get a brief explanation from a contractor of the project before going to the site. After the briefing, we were like meronda2 around the office. Then I bump into QS office where there is one guy doing his work, which is taking-off works, which is the kind of works that i will do later when i get a job as QS. The thing that put me into trauma is, when i see that the guy is so depress while doing his taking-off. But wait, not until i see the thickness of the document that is need to be done. oh my,the thickness is like 7 inch of heels, or to be precise the document was like as thick as the thickest oxford dictionary in the world! Man, no wonder the guy was so stress its like he want to punch on someone face very hard. The question is, am i going to be like this guy 5 years to come????

our first site visit! yeay...

look at the three indon over there. haha

this thg is called bar reinforcement

seriously, its very hot there. smua tok puteri lilin bah. haha

this is azah, a.k.a. deja Moss. XD

this is me. ngegeh sekejap. heee~

i'm kinda lazy to write about the visit. but it happened in unimas, fyi... just wana show some pictures :) overall, it was a cool experience! after the visit, we were attacking spring to have a lunch! hehe~

my current addiction!

a.n.jell

Jang Geun Suk

This is him again ^.^

wo ai ni! :))

so this is my current addiction, A.N.JELL!! i just love them so much after i watch their korean drama; U're beautiful. My favourite one is Jang geun Suk. hehe~ This is not my first korean drama i ever watch but this one got me so addicted and plus with all the handsome boys in this drama, i just went crazy of them!

The story; u're beautiful is super duper fantastic! it's about, a girl name Go Mi Nam (park da ye) who pretend to be a guy and join the group(a.n.jell) to replace her brother just for a while because eye surgery. At first, the group member can't accept her bcoz she seems weird to them but then, all of the guys falling in love with her n everyone is trying to win her heart until she is finally reveal as a girl. Everyone is surprised, but then their goes triangle love between Tae hyung ( Jang Geun Suk) and Sae Hyun. Mi Nam didn't realize that she has falling in love with Tae Hyung and try to keep her feeling. This strory is very2 hilarious that got me 'goleng2 tetak atas katil'. hahah~One of the hilarious part i can't forget is when Tae Hyung was chasing by a pig at the jungle while listening to his mp3 and didn't realize that a pig is coming towards him until an old man gives him warning. hahah~ In the end of this story, Tae Hyung finally confess his love towards Mi Nam but unfortunately she has to reject sae Hyun's love and Jeremy too. I just love the ending so much. the OST give me a very deep impact in my heart, such as What should i do and My heart is calling you.

What Should I Do- Jang Geun Suk [You're beautiful OST2]

why people always being so judgemental?

i wonder y people like to judge others.. they're always n its like their hobby to judge other people.. i knw it's human's nature judging people around them..it's not that i dont want to accept what they think about me.. but y cant they accept me for the real me. and havent they look themselves in the mirror n realized that they r not perfect either.. people r not perfect n even their friends r not perfect too.. im sick of being around w this kind.. sometimes im not being me when im around them. i have to b like what they want me to be, n what they like to see, what they like to hear.. its just not me.. its fake! bcoz they cant accept me the way i am. come on, if u're my true friends, u will accept me the way i am.. if u dont like me for who i am then i suddenly realized now that u're not my true friend.. but i dont care now.. i love to b myself n i enjoy it.. tq :)

new chapter new life n im single! yeay!

its been a long time didnt write on my blog.. sorilah kemalasan melanda jiwa.. but hey its a new chapter of my life n sekarang dh semester 3.. wah dh jd senior.. haha.. xlah best ney biasa jak.. just that bla dh jd senior byk org senyum dgn kta.. so kena rajin lah senyum balit.. last semester i didnt achieve well on my result. i got really frustated.. yalah bermain jak2.. bla gk nak serius?? myb this semester? i hope so.. so dh sem 3.. azam pun mesti tinggi n hati mok makin cekal. haha skema li jak.. i want to study hard this sem n myb netauk ada rezeki dpt anugerah dekan. jeles dgn fai mala jak dekan.. ney boleh kalah tok! hehe. cayok2 n blaja kuat2!

salam..

yeay aisha single agik!!

ok i fail again i knw..im ok and we remain friend.cool rite, i never doing this in my life b4. but this current relationship i had, pecah record babe... 5 bulan lebih.. haha.. pecah record glak lah ya.. so many thgs i've learn about love.i try to fix it but i cant. but 8least saya tidak lari dr masaalah. this time im very patient with it n didnt rush in making decisions. bangga saya eh.. i found it love need us to be patience n cant be force.. i realize that i always easily give my heart to someone that i hardly even knw and ended up hurting myself. so next time i'll be waiting for my true love.. i will not try to find it, but love find me... like they always said, easy come easy go rite? i think it is very2 true.. kan dh terkena kat diri sendiri.. padan muka ko Aisha! haha..

but being single is not that bad.. boleh cuci mata tanpa rasa bersalah.. wuhuu!! ^.^ x perlu jaga hati org lain gk.. and tidak lagi terkongkong. i can do whatever i want n whenever i want...oo yeah best nya.. :)

anyways, i will never give up in searching my true love.. cayok2 aisha..

i don't have title for this

its just my heart that want to speak...

its sumthng that always pop out in my mind...

n somethg that makes me wonder...

what if the guy u always love n always be with is not meant for u..

what if u gave all of ur love to him, but in the end, u n him is not togethr..

what if love is not meant for u..

what if u're a failure in love

what if in the end, u turn out into 'andartu'.. pray for God it will not happen to me

what if there is no happy ever after in ur life

p/s: i dont have any answer for that.. its just my heart that speaks. T.T. the rest i leave it to God that will decide.. im just a human.. i just pray for God there is a happy ever after in my life..

i hate that i love u

• i hate it i hate it i hate it! u make me burst into cry when i miss u at nite
• i hate that u ignore me, when i hardly wana see ur face! jgn lah jual mhl! ( i knw im the one who used to jual mhl n 4get about u)
• i hate that what goes around comes around..
  
• i hate that i cried cuz i dont wana lose u..
• i hate everythg about u, when i love everythg about u..

p/s: i miss u while im learning Construction technology.. huhu door pun dh slh lukis dh!! argh!!

our last class APD2Q1 2010!

Omg how time goes so fast! today is our last class for semester 2..huhuhuhu... how i wish i can turn back time n roll everythg again.. APD2Q1 is Rock! we had fun during this smester n myb a lot of drama too.. well, human nature.. i dont mind.. kinda enjoy with it. haha.. life wthout drama xbest..XD

but yeah, hope that we'll be 2gthr again for next semester cuz we well be shuffled randomly..huhuh... why they have to shuffle us when we already have our own clique?? they gona seperate us.. T.T how sad...

Now we gotta focus for final examination.. what a stress week! i hope everythg goes well.. God plis guide me to answer the final paper.. im so worried cuz im still weak in Measurement. .Gosh. i hope i will pass.. Study mode now people! gudluck to me n hope that i'll succeed. Amin!

Qs Magical Night 2010 at Grand Continental

dinner QS finally! we've been working it out all week! thnx to syazwani, azah farizah n adzie.. the dinner was succeed dgn cemerlang. haha.. they had decorated the hall dgn cantik skali.. haha.. the preparation b4 dinner? jgn dtanyak.. nang kamboh kmk org... b4 dinner, kmk org smua bkumpul d rumah wani.. im the mak andam of the day.. haha.. ng kamboh jak ngias org.. first ku ngias adzie, kakya azah, then nad.. sori wani x sempat ngias ktk.. nasib msh igt ilmu mengandam.. hehe.. kacak juak lah cdak tek dkemas ku... *wink.

we're the earliest that arrived at grand conti.. i was amazed by the decoration that they did.. well done guys! the hall is full with people around 7.. apa gk, photoshoot lah... XD afta that the dinner started at 8..dinner dmulakan dgn ucapan by our kp, Encik faiz followed by our senior part 6, Hisham.then makan2. the food was fabulous! yummy... after menjamu selera, i performed by singing lagu Janji Manis mu.. haha can u imagine? very old school. what ever lah janji puas ati afta blagu mlm ya..tp xtauk lah sumbang kah x. tyk dgn penonton yg mendengar.hehe.. *wink. pendekkan crita, the dinner was very happening. thnx kpd sesiapa yg dtg ke dinner mlm ya.. n thnx cuz menghappening kan the Qs magical nite..